The Babysitter

Dreamt of Pa.. We are sitting on the sofa in my mums lounge. He has a little boy on his lap. It looks like my nephew Alex. He has to go

We are having choir practice. We are all sitting on the floor in my mums front room. (Pa. isn’t there though). I can see people on a stage, it is a very large theatre. There are some famous singers. Mariah Carey is there. There are also some normal people who are also singers. It looks very glitzy, I think it is being filmed for television.

I think I am watching the television with the people from choir. I know Karen is there, the others are hazy. We are watching Silence of the Lambs. It’s the part where he is telling her how he has sown on someone else’s face onto his. She is chatting away asking questions as if he were a normal person. I see him with several different faces, at one point I am looking out through his eyes. She is wearing make-up and glasses, her hair is permed. She doesn’t really seem to be paying much attention to what he’s saying.

I’m on the sofa with Pa.. He says he doesn’t like horror films, but he doesn’t mind the ones I showed him, they were very intelligent. He says he is going. He roles over onto me and drops the toddler on my lap. He stands up and says he’ll be back in a bit.

At first the toddler is a bit shy but we bond quite quickly. We go into one of the bedrooms to play. My sister L. is there and so is my niece H.. They are in one of the beds. They get out when I come in. L. is very upset, I think because I have this baby (she finds it difficult to be happy for other people). She is saying some very mean things. She calms down after a bit and they go out. Alex can say a few words. He says daddy meaning Pa., then he says ‘Bic Bic’, which is one of my nieces’ name for me. I am amazed he knows who I am. I open a book and show him the letter ‘v’. I try to get him to say ‘Vic’.

I am driving through what looks like a big city. I think Pa. is in the car with me. The road layout looks American. I am at a large cross roads, I turn right, I am swapping lanes, but I’m not really sure where I should be on the road.

I am back at the house, we are outside. My sister C. is there as well. The house is on an estate. E are all going for a walk. A man brings me a handwritten letter. It is from some people who live on a farm. The language in the letter is very posh, which surprises me as they are farmers. The language they use is exaggerated and a bit overdone. They are talking about a dispute they’ve had. It think it is with some other farmers. I think they are related to Pa.. This man who gives me the letter says they’re not very nice. It’s an invitation for me to go and see them. I don’t know them and I haven’t met them but there seems to be some kind formal relationship between us.

We set off on our walk. I have a lead for Alex. I’m afraid he is going to run off. I give him a bike with stabilisers and zaps off with this lead attached. We come back from the walk. He wants some of bubble gum. He chooses a green piece, but he doesn’t like it. He opens his mouth wide so I can take it out. Pa. comes back, I am hoping he is going to stay, but he doesn’t. He takes Alex and they go.