Back To School

I’m at King Eddies (my secondary school). It looks empty, the coach has just dropped us off. Maybe no one else is there yet. Inside I begin running very fast through the corridors and down some stairs. Someone is chasing me (AS?).

I am walking down the hill from the lower school building to the upper school. I see the coach turning round in the staff car park. I knock on the door but the driver ignores me. There is another coach parked there. I carry on walking It is cold, there is frozen snow on the ground. I pass a gap in the hedge. Through the gap I can see the entrance to the upper school, but it looks different.

L. is standing on the steps. She walks towards me. There are thorns sticking out in the gap, but she comes through, and then I go through the other way. I walk across the grass toward the entrance. There are wide steps leading to the double doors which are wide open, and beyond is a large hall in darkness.

I go inside. I see a woman kneeling, she has short blond hair. She is holding a child. I think it is L. A voice from the side tells me to go somewhere. MI think that’s when I find myself in my flat.

I’m at home in my bed. I’m huddled under the blankets, I don’t want to get up. There is also a bath in my room? A man is doing exercises on me, squeezing me and pulling my joints, like I used to do on my autistic boy.

Now I am in the lounge. It looks like my dads place, their black sideboard is there. There are two camp beds on the floor. Me and L. have been asleep there. The only place to go to the toilet is in a plastic washing up bowl. I have to have a number two. I am trying to wipe myself with a kitchen towel but it starts getting everywhere.

It is dusty and there are lots of cobwebs. My mum walks past the room and asks us to clean up.

L. watches while I clean. I am polishing the sideboard. Grace comes in to help, I let her spray the polish.

Nature Watch

I am a school girl again, I’m in my uniform. There is a group of us and we’re being trained to work with animals. There is a very large rectangular pond. We have to get in and catch something. We are trying to save these animals from a predator.

I am walking down a semi rural residential street, I see one of these animals in front of me. It runs off. (I think it’s a small dog).

I’m at the top of my dad’s back garden with L.. we are in our King Eddie Uniforms. My brother C. and my friend Kat are little children again. Me and L. are trying to make a bed to sleep on, on the lower branches of a tree. I have some books that have gotten wet that I put on the bed. There is an animal, I can’t see it, it is in a bush. A dog jumps into the bush. L. says I should check it’s okay. I put my shoes back on and go over to the bush but the dog runs off, although it has left some poop behind. I pick up the poop and run after it. I think the dog must have thrown the animal into a tree. Because a girl in the same uniform as me who followed me when I ran after it finds a hedgehog in a tree. She lies it on the ground. I think it is hurt.